Pain tears feel like throwing up.
The feeling starts in the stomach and quickly rises up.
You usually don’t understand it, maybe you even question it.
But they come strong and heavy, and with them comes the realization: the feelings that were otherwise stuck inside you come out into the real word.
Tears.
Unlike the result of bad seafood or too much drinking, tears are not something bad leaving you, they are the materialization of a sentiment. It comes and takes shape. It builds, it lives. And that’s how a feeling is recognized, not internal anymore, but materialized.
And now it’s clear. Done. Seen. No longer only mine, but part of the world. And what once didn’t seem to make sense begins to be felt, and through real sensation, it starts to make sense.
Whether it’s me or you, grow and accept: the you of today is not the you of tomorrow, and at the same time, the child you once were is still inside you. Tomorrow will be challenging. Lessons will come. Difficult moments will become normal. And so coal becomes a diamond.
And the child still in there needs to remember that regardless of the day, the season, or the difficulty, she has herself. Days go and days come. Pause. Breathe. Feel. Cry.
Stay in draft, keep becoming.
Me
